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Bucky Barnes X Reader (Chapter 20) Safe and Sound

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You woke up with a smile on your face, your naked body covered by the bed sheets. Your head was resting on Bucky’s chest with his arms draped across your back holding you tightly against him. You felt calm being close to Bucky again, for after so long being separated, you were finally together again.
You could feel Bucky’s heartbeat increase as his metal arm wrapped tighter around your body. You raised your head to see if there were any signs of Bucky waking from his peaceful slumber, but you could see his closed eyes moving frantically behind his closed lids and his jaw clenched tightly. He was having a nightmare. You were unsure of what was the best way to bring him out of it, remembering the bad effects of doing it last time. You reached out your hand to touch his stubbly jaw, but before you could he screamed out your name, bolting upright, tears starting to fall down his face. It broke your heart to see him like this, again.
“Bucky?” You said gently. Bucky’s unfocused and frantic eyes locked onto yours, his terrified face turning to relief as he threw himself against you, his hands grasping the bare skin on your back.  You rocked him slowly back and forth, pressing kisses into his damp hair.
Suddenly, Bucky pulled himself from your grasp and threw the wet sheets from his body, running out of the room in a panic.
“Bucky!” You shouted in shock. You heard him throw open a door and an unsettling retching sound coming from him. You got out of bed and grabbed Bucky’s shirt from the night before and threw it on your body before leaving the room to find him. You walked into the open room to find a light bathroom with tiled floor. It looked similar to the one in London; a marble bath tub was to the left, a large shower in the corner and the toilet and sink to the right, the sink fixed into a wooden surface with a cupboard below it. That’s when you saw Bucky hunched over the toilet, his naked body shaking as he threw up more bile. You crouched beside him rubbing his back for support as he tried to contain himself. He eventually pushed himself away from the toilet, his quivering hand reaching up to flush. You did it for him pushing down the toilet lid and grabbing Bucky under his arms to try and lift him.
“Bucky you’ve gotta help me lift you up.” You whispered. He gave simple nod as he pushed himself up on his hands and you settled him on the toilet. His head was hanging low as he regained his breath. You lifted his sweat drenched face carefully seeing his watery eyes finding yours.
“Let’s get you in the shower.” You said lifting him again and half dragging him into the shower opening the glass door. Bucky leant himself against the back of the shower as he held onto you with his metal arm for balance. You turned the shower on keeping it at a cold temperature. You saw Bucky’s muscles tense beneath the water as he slowly relaxed closing his eyes and leaning his head back.
“I’m gonna get you a towel and some clean clothes out, ok?” He responded with a nod slowly releasing his grip from you as he steadied himself to stand by himself. You hurried out of the room searching quickly in the wardrobe and drawers beside Bucky’s side of the bed. You found some grey jogging bottoms and a plain white shirt for Bucky leaving them on the bed. You searched the wardrobe for yourself pulling out the first things you saw which was a baggy grey shirt and jeans which you hoped fit. You then looked through your drawers picking out a clean pair of underwear and a bra. You got dressed quickly throwing Bucky’s shirt from the night before in the laundry basket and putting on your shoes from the night before.
You went back into the bathroom seeing Bucky standing by himself with no struggle, his hands running through his hair as he quickly washed his body. You searched the cupboard under the sink and found towels, taking two and walking to the shower. You turned off the water and Bucky’s eyes shot open staring at you. You opened one towel and held it towards him. He wrapped it around his waist while you opened the second and put it around his shoulders. He stepped out of the shower and into your embrace leaning his wet forehead against your shoulder. Your arms enveloped him, rubbing his back through the towel.
“You wanna tell me what just happened?” You asked stroking Bucky’s hair.
“I – uh… It was just a dream.” He stammered out, his grip around you becoming stronger.
“Just a dream my ass! You’ve never got yourself so worked up like that before.” You argued pulling back enough so Bucky had to raise his head to look at you.
“I guess my body’s finally started to protest. They’ve been going on for so long I guess my body just can’t take it anymore.” He replied, his voice rough and scratchy.
“I laid some clothes out for you. I’m going to make something to eat and we’re going to talk about this ok?” He simply nodded giving you a kiss on the cheek.
“I love you.” You smiled and replied.
“I love you too. Don’t forget to brush your teeth.” You walked out the room and down the stairs reaching your oversized kitchen raiding the cupboards for food.
Out laid on your marble countertop were a packet of bacon, readymade waffles and pancakes and a packet of green grapes which you were surprisingly craving. You searched the cupboards for saucepans finally finding them after looking through four cupboards and set it on the stupidly large cooker putting some oil onto the pan and dumping a whole packet of bacon on it for starters. You turned on the cooker and grabbed a pair of tongs to flip the bacon with from a small drawer beside the cooker.
Suddenly a pair of arms wrapped around your middle as small kisses were placed on your neck, his small stubble rubbing against your skin tickling your skin. You put down the tongs and rubbed the arms before turning to face Bucky.
“How you feeling?” You asked settling your hands on his shoulders.
“Yeah I’m ok. Now sit, I’ll make breakfast.” He said pulling out at stall, tucked in the island counter, with his foot and moving you to sit on it. You perched yourself on it and smiled as Bucky kisses your forehead. You watch as he moves to the refrigerator, pulling out a bottle of water and taking a swig of water and spitting it in the sick.
“Mouth taste like crap?” You ask resting your hands under your chin.
“You could say that.” He muttered placing the bottle on the island countertop and moving to the cooking bacon. You watched as he cooked, like the previous ten minutes didn’t even happen.
You watched as his eyebrows furrowed in concentration as he placed the waffles and small pancakes in the high tech looking toaster.
“You sure you don’t want any help?”
“No I’m fine.” He snapped making your head raised from shock.
“I’m sorry.” He quickly spoke taking your hands across the island counter. He raised your hands to your mouth kissing your knuckles.
“What’s going on with you?” He hesitated taking a deep breath before speaking.
“I-in the dream… You and the baby were taken by Hydra. They were dragging us apart and I didn’t have enough strength to fight back. All I could hear was you screaming and crying.” You knew that him speaking about it was making him uncomfortable.
“Bucky, nothing’s going to happen. The Baby and I are fine. We’re not going anywhere.” You reassured him leaning over the counter giving him a gentle kiss. You leant away your lips still touching. You smiled as he leant in for another kiss.
“You’re burning the bacon.” You teased laughing and sitting back on the stall. He smiled and picked up the tongs putting the pieces of bacon on a plate and putting it on the counter in front of you. Then the toaster pinged, the waffle and pancakes springing up.
He worked around the kitchen quickly as you ate pieces of bacon off the plate. You even experimented, eating a piece of bacon with a grape. It tasted weird but not bad.
“That’s disgusting.” Bucky spoke up throwing saucepans in the sink to wash up later.
“Hey don’t knock it until you try it!” You laughed giving him a piece of bacon and a grape. He paused before taking the food off you and taking a bite. His face immediately changed to disgust chewing it and swallowing it quickly.
“It is disgusting.” You laughed eating them together.
“Well it’s what your baby is craving!” You giggled patting your belly. He smiled gently at you before he started to clean the kitchen.
“Barnes sit down and eat.” You ordered pulling out a stall next to you.
“Yes ma’am.” He said lifting up his hands in defeat.
“But get me a drink first.” He rolled his eyes grabbing an orange juice from the fridge. You took it from him giving him a wink before opening the drink and taking a large gulp. It tasted bitter and wrong putting the drink down on the counter,
“Yuck!” You spluttered swallowing it holding the bridge of your nose.
“What? Does it taste weird?” Bucky asked taking a sip. “Y/n, it tastes fine.”
“Well to me it doesn’t!”
“It’s the baby. Things are going to taste different now! You just ate a grape and bacon together like it’s a normal thing and orange juice tastes wrong to you.” Bucky spoke sitting beside you and taking a bite out of his waffle. You bottom lip was poking out until Bucky ripped his waffle in half and gave a part to you. You kissed him and took a bite of your waffle.
“There is a whole plate of waffles and pancakes you can help yourself to but you choose to eat mine.”
“It’s your fault that I’m going to get fat and miserable over the next six months.” You interjected stuffing the remaining waffle in your mouth
“Excuse me but it takes two to tango.” He argued pulling you in for a kiss. You giggled against his lips, wrapping your arms around his neck.
A sudden beeping noise deprived you from your kissing session with Bucky. It sounded like it was coming from the elevator.
“What’s that?” You asked facing towards the corridor where the elevator was.
“Someone’s coming up to this level. Tony thought it would be funny if we had warning just in case.”
“What a joker.” You muttered standing up from the stool.
“Just prepare yourself.” Bucky warned starting to clear up the island counter.
“Why?” You questioned suddenly nervous. Then suddenly you heard a voice you’ve wanted to hear for a long time.
“Where are you, you pain in the ass!” Natasha shouted excitedly skipping into the living room. Her eyes met yours and she ran into you bringing you into a bear hug.
“Why did you have to wake up when I wasn’t here!? She stammered picking you up.
“Hey to you too Tasha.” You wheezed finding it hard to breathe with the amount of strength Natasha was using. She put you down and grabbed your arms.
“I’m just glad to see you’re ok. It hasn’t been the same around here without you.”
“Hey look who it is! Sleeping beauty!” Clint cheered his arms raised in triumph.
“Is that my new nickname or something?” You asked as he pulled you in for a hug, a lot softer than Natasha’s.
“How you feeling?” Clint questioned pulling away.
“Ok, for someone who came out of a coma yesterday. I should be in bed groggy as hell but apparently my power kept my body in a good state.”
“At least you and the baby are fine.” Natasha smiled giving you another hug.
“If you haven’t noticed she’s missed you.” Clint joked walking over to the island counter and taking a waffle.
“And you even supplied us with breakfast.”
“Well leftover breakfast.” Bucky added walking around the counter and giving Clint a hug.
“It’s good to see you two alright. Did you find anything?” Bucky asked Clint and Natasha. Natasha pulled away from you and gave a shake off the head before taking a seat on the stool you were previously at.
“Not a thing. Maybe their finally gone.” Natasha took a pancake from the plate and tore it in tow before eating half.
“Who are gone?” You took the seat beside Natasha watching as she looked towards Bucky chewing the food in her mouth slowly.
“You haven’t told her where we were?” Bucky looked at you and then back to Natasha.
“No I didn’t think it was that much of a big deal.”
“Who are you talking about?” You proclaimed as you watched all eyes settle on you. Clint leant forward on the counter.
“Natasha and I went searching for any Hydra intel. We weren’t sure if they were regrouping again but we didn’t find anything. Not even at the base you guys were being held, not a damn thing. We think Hydra is finally gone.”
“Why didn’t you tell me where they were?” You queried turning towards Bucky.
“Don’t start, Y/n they were only looking into it, hell, they volunteered.” Bucky responded clearing up the counter so he didn’t have to see the glare you were giving him.
“Hey, Y/n.” Natasha spoke calmly covering her hand over yours. “Bucky’s telling the truth; Clint and I wanted to go. We needed to know for sure. I didn’t want them taking any of my friends ever again. I needed to know it was over.” You smiled throwing your arm over her shoulder.
“Thank you, both of you. Knowing that they’re gone will help us rest a lot easier.” You glanced towards Bucky who was facing away head down looking at the sink. You saw his shoulder start to shake and then you realised, he was crying. You nearly jumped off the stool and advanced towards Bucky turning him around. He quickly took you into his arms crying against your shoulder. He looked up quickly with a smile on his face.
“Thank you so much you guys. You don’t know what this means to me.” He stuttered wiping away the tears. He smiled down at you and kissed you surprisingly. You pulled away wiping away the rest of the tear tracks.
“Don’t worry they’re happy tears.” He grinned kissing you again.
“They’re gone Y/n. Hydra are finally gone! They’ve been a part of my life so much I don’t remember life without them. I was just a puppet to them, a mindless solider and then I met you.” He took your face into his hands and rubbed away the tears forming in the corner of your eyes. Your arms linked around his neck as you kissed him laughing against his lips.
“Do you want us to… Go somewhere else?” Clint asked, his eyes covered.
“Shut up and let them have their moment dumbass.” Natasha blurted throwing a piece of cold bacon at Clint’s face. Clint caught it before it could hit him and ate it. You laughed as you hugged Bucky’s side.
“It’s nice to see you guys happy. You deserve it.” Natasha commented. “Anyway before we get all sappy here what do you think of the nursery?”
“I haven’t seen it yet actually.” You replied feeling yourself go slight red in the face.
“What do you mean you haven’t seen it? You got here last night didn’t… Oh.” Natasha realised and brought her hands up to her mouth trying to hold back laughter.
“Couldn’t wait just to check out the apartment, really? You God damn animals.” Clint blurted letting his laughter spring free. You buried your face in Bucky’s chest as the redness on your face increased.
“How about we change the subject like right now and see it?” Bucky advised not looking Natasha and Clint in the eye.
“Brilliant idea!” You almost screamed walking quickly towards the stairs.
“Aw look! Sleeping beauty’s all embarrassed!” Clint chorused behind you.
“Stop calling me that!” When you reached the top of the stairs a pair of hands covered your eye as they led you towards the door.
“Really Bucky? This again?”
“Shut up.” He guided you towards the room and opened it pushing you slightly in the room. Your eyes were uncovered and your eyes were welcomed to a baby’s nursery. White walls, a white wooden crib right beside the door to the right, a Moses basket on the other side of the crib for the new born to sleep in for the first couple of months. A few straw looking baskets filled with toys against the furthest wall also with a changing mat on a wooden cupboard equipped with drawers beneath, most likely filled with things like diapers and bottles, and white Chester drawers beside them. Even on the left was a comfy looking white chair for when you feed the baby. In that moment it finally hit you, you were going to be a mother.
“Pepper said we could change the colour scheme when we know the sex of the baby.”
“No I like it how it is. It’s so beautiful.” You cried leaning into Bucky’s chest. “We’re going to be parents Bucky. We’re going to have a baby.” Bucky’s arms wrapped around your stomach as he kissed the top of your head. It made your heart flutter knowing that in six months a tiny baby was going to be lying in the Moses basket.
“I’m not crying at all!” Natasha snapped to Clint behind her. As Bucky and you turned you saw her wiping her red and glossy eyes.
“It is super beautiful though.” Natasha beamed leaning her head on Clint’s shoulder.
“Why don’t those two just hook-up already?” Bucky whispered into your ear making a throaty laugh escape your mouth.
“What’s so funny?” Clint questioned straightening up slightly.
“Oh nothing, don’t worry!” You giggled swaying in Bucky’s arms.
“I guess she hasn’t seen the other room either?” Natasha asked pointing to the closed door opposite the nursery. Before you could answer Bucky covered your eyes again.
“Bucky really!?” He only chuckled and led you blindly to the room.
“This is something just for you.” He whispered before you heard the door opening. He uncovered your eyes and you saw a study room.  You walked inside not believing what you were seeing. A large bookshelf was on the right with a desk built into it in the middle with a pricey looking laptop.  And then against the large window wall was another desk and chair with an old fashioned typewriter on top with a pen and paper beside it and on the left was an antique looking fire place with wooden patterns carved into the wood.
“I didn’t know how you preferred to write so I asked Pepper if she could get both. Sometimes I know you like to be old fashioned.”
“How to write?” You turned to look at him seeing a proud look on his face.
“I remember you telling me in London that before S.H.I.E.L.D you enjoyed writing and, well, I don’t think you’re going to be in active duty for a while or never if I had my way, but I thought you might want to start again. Maybe even write that romantic novel you were thinking of doing; you should have enough inspiration by now, right?” You walked up to him and hugged him kissing him like you’re life depended on it.
“How do you still amaze me every day?” You asked the smile on your face far from fading.
“I’m just pretty romantic like that.” He boasted kissing you tenderly.
“Can you guys keep your hands off each other for five minutes? You have guests.” Clint gestured to himself and Natasha who was hiding her face in her hands.
“You ok Natasha?” You queried.
“I’m all good.” She replied through her hands as she let out a loud sniffle.
“Are you crying again?” Clint asked leaning in towards her.
“I was not crying before and I’m not crying now! I must be coming down with something!” She snapped leaving the room in a hurry.
“That girl sometimes. One minute she could break a man’s arm, the next, a walking mess.” Clint joked leaving to follow her.
“Thank you for this. I love it and I love you.”
“I love you too. Now come on before Natasha breaks down in the kitchen or something.” Bucky pulled you out of the room and led you down the stairs into the kitchen where Clint and Natasha were arguing.
“Just admit you were crying! There is nothing wrong with you crying! Even if it was over a nursery and a study.”
“Clint shut up before I make you!” Natasha shouted ready to grab a saucepan from the sink.
“Ok guys let’s tone it down, this is a new place and I want to keep it in one piece.” Bucky smirked sitting down on the stool and pulling you to sit on him. The beeping from the elevator started again signalling someone else was going to make an appearance.
“Let’s throw a party while we’re at it.” Bucky murmured in your ear wrapping his legs around yours. Cassidy was the person who appeared at the end of the corridor straightening up when she saw us all staring at her. Her arms wrapping around herself like a defence.
“Sorry I didn’t mean to interrupt I just wondered if I could talk to Y/n at all?” Her voice came out shaky.
“Yeah that’s fine.” You stood up and turned to Clint and Natasha. “I’ll talk to you guys later on if that’s ok? We have a lot more catching up to do.” They nodded in agreement and said there goodbyes before vacating to the elevator.
“I’m going to put some proper clothes on.” Bucky announced standing up and kissing your forehead and retreated up the stairs. You looked towards Cassidy who was rubbing the back of her neck anxiously. You patted the stool next to you and she quickly walked over and took the seat.
“Look I… I’m sorry for what happened to you, it was my fault-”
“No it wasn’t, it was far from your fault. It’s Hydra’s fault. Please do not blame yourself.” She looked at you almost shocked. “Do you know about your parents?” Her body tensed and she looked down at the counter.
“What that they’re looking for me because I’m a missing person’s case? It’s funny I don’t even remember them that much.” She asked her hands turning into fists on the table.
“Cassidy I want you to know that I know how you’re feeling. You’re feeling alone and lost because I’ve been there so many times before, when my parents died, when I got this power and when I thought Bucky was dead. But at least you know that your parents are still alive.” You grabbed Cassidy’s hands watching as they relaxed. “I promise you Cassidy, you’re going to be with your parents again. We just need to control this power and try to get as much of your memory back as possible before we can do that.”
“Can’t you tell them where I am at least? Let them know I’m alive? Maybe if they see me they could trigger some memories and speed up the process.”
“It could put them in danger and I don’t want to risk that.”
“Danger? Danger of what? Hydra? I thought Natasha and Clint went out there to find out if they’re gone and they said they were?” Cassidy looked confused and then she pulled her hands away from yours. “You think they’re still out there?”
“I’m not sure. I just want to take precaution. Hydra don’t give up easily. I mean they were a part of S.H.I.E.L.D for years and no one even knew. They were under our noses the whole time.”
“I didn’t ask for this.” Cassidy whispered, her eyes glazed with tears.
“I know and I’m sorry but all we can do now is work through this. I will help you with your power and Bucky can help you with the memory situation. He’s been there enough times.”
“But he hates me.”
“Trust me he doesn’t hate you. He’s just super protective over the people he loves. Don’t worry he’ll warm up to you. Maybe tomorrow you, me and Bucky could have dinner? Get to know each other a little better because I sure don’t know enough about you.”
“Yeah neither do I.” Cassidy laughed shaking her head. “Stuff is coming back though, they’re a little foggy at first but I’m remembering things like where I grew up, what schools I went to. Friends and family and I think I had a dog named Hulk?”
“Hulk? Bruce would love that.” You chuckled shaking your head in amusement.
“Thank you.” Cassidy gently spoke smiling at the counter.
“For what?”
“For not hating me, because I was kind of the reason you got shot and put into a coma. A person could seriously hate someone for that.” She laughed folding her arms against her.
“And I won’t forget how you were the one to pull me out of it. I don’t know how long I could’ve been stuck in that coma for.” A smirk played on her lips as she looked up.
“How you been doing here so far? Everyone treating you ok?”
“Surprisingly yes. I’ve been living on the same floor as Tony and Pepper just in case I have any problems and Dr. Banner has been helping with the power problem, gave me this sweet looking bracelet to wear to keep the power at bay. Pretty funky I thought. He even has one for you.” She replied pulling up the sleeve on her hoodie and showing me a small, thin metallic bracelet which gave off a small blue color
“Awesome. Well I should be going to see Dr. Banner now actually to have my scan. I want to see this little peanut for myself.” You said poking your belly.
“Do you know how many weeks along you are?”
“I think about eleven or twelve so they should be here in about six months which sounds terrifying.”
“Do you think you’re going to find out the gender today?”
“Maybe if we’re lucky. I really want to start calling my baby a name instead of peanut because it’s sure not going to look like one for long!”
“Well I guess I will see you later then! I’ll go and hang out with Clint, he finally said he’s gonna teach me how to use a bow!” She almost squealed with excitement as she launched herself from the stool.
“Be careful and don’t shoot anyone with it, even if Clint is being an ass he needs to make me a burger. Oh remind him he needs to make me a burger, like tonight or I will kill him.”
“I will be sure to tell him that! I’ll see you later!” She waved before disappearing down the corridor.
“Funny kid.” You head from the top of the stairs. Bucky was out of his jogging bottoms and into a grey and dark red stripy jumper and black trousers with black shoes. He descended down the stairs and made his way to you kissing your shoulders and neck.
“You need to talk to her soon. She thinks you hate her.”
“I don’t hate her.” He groaned against your neck.
“Then good, because we’re having dinner with her tomorrow.” You replied pushing Bucky off as you got off the stool.
“Where are you going?”
“I want to see my baby.” You smiled rubbing your hands on your belly.
“Just imagine in a couple of months you’re going to be huge!” Your face dropped at Bucky’s bad choice of words.
“Oh Come on you know I didn’t mean it like that!” Bucky defended wrapping his arms around your waist so you couldn’t escape.
“In a couple of months you’re gonna still be as beautiful as the day I first saw you. Better?” You smiled and kissed him resting your hands on his stubbly jaw.
“Much better.” You said stroking your fingers across his jaw. “Keep the stubble, I like it.”
“Really?”
“Yeah, it’s kinda hot actually.” You teased kissing him slowly.
“I love you, Y/n.”
“I love you too Bucky Barnes.”






I can't believe I'm saying this but I have reached my 20th chapter of this story with a word count of 61,005 words! Thank you for everyone who has read this and left a favourite, it's an awesome feeling knowing that people enjoy my writing!
This story was originally only supposed to be a one shot and it has progressed into a story that I still have a million ideas for! This story is far from over and I hope you still enjoy it then as much as you do now!
I am going back and editing chapters to cover plot holes and what not. I have only edited chapter 1 at the moment and when I have more time I will edit the rest. I am writing a different beginning for chapter 2 to show a tad bit more backstory to the readers past. I will alert you all when chapter 2 is edited and done!
Thanks again for everyone who has read this! :D
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Okay, so I am reading this fanfic again because I just loved it the first time and didn't get enough, but last time I read I got to chapter 18 and thought it was over. I'm reading it again and THERE'RE MORE CHAPTERS!!!! I AM SO ADDICTED TO THIS FANFIC MOAAAARRRE PLEASE!!!! :-)